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This is Previous-Essay <== This-Essay ==> Following-Essay Click HERE on this line to find essays via Your-Key-Words. {Most frequent wordstarts of each essay will be put here.} ========================================================== %OLD AGE MATURE DEATH PRAY FORGIVE REPRESS SIN+940225 %SUPPRESS COLLUSION INJUNCTION TABOO DEFENSE TRUTH+940225 %TREE KNOWLEDGE GOOD EVIL INTIMATE RESPONSIBLE LOVE+940225 %REFLEX PLEASURE DESIRE ANXIETY FULFILL SELF OTHER+940225 %TIED KNOTS TENSION CONTENTION CONFLICT RESOLUTION 940225 Often the older we grow, the more we need to pray for forgiveness for the many layers of repressive prohibitions, repressions, suppressions, collusions, injunctions and taboos which we have participated in putting in place---as defenses against our truly knowing ourselves and others in intimate ways. Too often we are deathly in fear of how we and others might respond to our true discovery of our hidden truths about our true: needs, desires, fears, reflexes, reflexivity, prayers, responses, pleasures, pains, anxieties, and fulfillments. We are often deathly afraid of reflexive truths about ourselves and others. We fear to be safely vulnerable in integrative intimate relationships with our wholes selves and each other. Our fear motivates us to develop, engender and refine endless layers of repressive prohibitions, repressions, suppressions, collusions, injunctions and taboos --- in self defense against what we fear. We weave steel stranded gordian knots from the outside in---to protect ourselves against our inner fears which become more and more concentrated on the inside of our layers of defenses. We are successful in protecting ourselves against the hazards of integrative intimate relationships with our whole selves and each other---by blocking all open and honest communication with our true selves and true others. We pride ourselves in how objective and impersonal we have become in our scientific and technological sophistication---and so we seek to find salvation from all that we fear --- through scientific research and the development of even more sophisticated scientific and technological solutions to our fear-full dilemmas; even at the expense of the elimination of most living species and most concentrated resources from our planetary neighborhood. We need to reverse the patterns of reactions, responses, and behaviors which have dominated us and by which we have dominated each other. We need to start working from the inside out to re-discover each other in open and honest intimate relationships where we do not defend ourselves with alienative technologies; but rather give to ourselves and to each other the gift of the freedom to be safely vulnerable in integrative approaches, responses and relationships. in and our knots cannot be untied until we on the inside want to work to untie them. We are tied in knots inside our fears. The many tearful layers of defensive onion shields have been created and put in place from the outside in; and cannot be removed until we on the inside want to work to remove them and get outside them. Threats to our defensive layers of pseudo- security which we perceive to originate outside of our layers ---motivate us to build additional defensive layers on the inside ---faster than layers of alienative defenses are removed from the outside. If we are to truly live we must deal honestly with the threats to our integrity which originate inside our defensive layers. (c) 2005 by Paul A. Smith in (On Being Yourself, Whole and Healthy) ==========================================================