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This is http://www.essayz.com/a8907283.htm Previous-Essay <== This-Essay ==> Following-Essay Click HERE on this line to find essays via Your-Key-Words. {Most frequent wordstarts of each essay will be put here.} ========================================================== %JACK HELPS JILL PRETEND COLLUSION UNTRUTH 890728 Jack and Jill are helping each other in different ways to maintain the pretensions of their collusive game of mutual self deception. Each is committed to helping the other pretend that they do not see through the "truth" of the other's pretense. When Jack pretends to be ignorant about some human experience (because the collusion demands such ignorance) Jill helps Jack by pretending to believe that Jack is in fact ignorant. Jack in turn pretends to believe that Jill really believes that he is really ignorant, when he is not. When Jill pretends to know about some human experience (about which she is really ignorant) Jack helps Jill by pretending that her pretense is convincing and that it really appears that she is knowledgeable. When Jack pretends to believe/not-believe something which is contrary to what he really does believe/not- believe; then Jill helps Jack maintain the power of their collusion by pretending that Jack's pretense is convincing, when it is not. When Jill pretends not to feel, with regards to some mutual experience, Jack helps Jill by pretending to believe that Jill's pretending is convincing, when in fact he can see through it; though perhaps only dimly. Each is only dimly aware that their pretensions are really pretensions, and that each is helping the other maintain pretensions which each other sees through. Dimly they know that they are helping each other become less and less aware of the difference between truth/falsehood, knowledge/ignorance, feeling/numbness, belief/doubt, hope/despair, faith/despair, care/indifference, etc. As Jack and Jill succeed in helping each other maintain their many forms of pretensions they become less and less aware of the differences between their realities and their pretensions. They become progressively more and more confused about all differences, including the differences between self and other. The violence which they do to themselves seems to threaten them from outside, because the difference between outside and inside has been blurred by pretensions. They fear that everybody is out to "get" them. They cannot trust each other, because they can not trust themselves to tell the truth about their experiences, feelings, knowledge, ignorance, feeling, numbness, beliefs, doubts, hopes, despairs, faith, care, indifference, etc. Everything becomes one confusing mess as the collusion reigns supreme. Jack and Jill do not know who they are, what they want, what they feel, what they believe, what they fear, who they can trust, etc. Their game of mutual self deception has progressively so confused them that they have no self identity, no self esteem, no self confidence, no hope for their future, no ground for being themselves; because there is no self which is truly real. If we are not true to our real experiences, feelings, convictions, knowledge, etc. then we gradually cease to be real to our selves and to others. If we are not true to our perceptions of those near and dear to us, then they gradually cease to be real to themselves and to us. If we do not give each other the freedom to be secure in being true with us, then we lose our security and our reality. (c) 2005 by Paul A. Smith in (On Being Yourself, Whole and Healthy) ==========================================================